Never enough

On many occasions I come up with ideas, implement them and then wonder to myself…now why the hell did I just do that?

A prime example came this past Tuesday. CT and PJ have been off of school for the week and I thought it would be fun for us to organize a get together. Since CT and his buddies have been so into Star Wars, I thought it would be fun to have a small handful of kids over for a viewing of the first Star Wars, or the fourth, depending on how you count.

So, of course, I can’t stop at just the movie, I have to include dinner and a small bit of play time. Then, of course, I can’t stop at one or two friends. When it was all said and done, it ended up being 11.

The kids came. The kids played with their light sabers in the driveway. The kids watched the movie. The kids lost interest in the movie about 10 minutes into it. The kids ate dinner early. Then, we all walked to the park. The neighbors looked on in amazement, wondering who these extra kids were wielding light sabers. And then…all 11 of them took over the park. The sun started to set. The parents came. The kids went home. CT pouted.

I looked at him and couldn’t believe he had the gall to pout. And how, after a full afternoon of frolicking with his friends, could he be sad? How on earth could he be doing this to me after all I have given him? Because. Because he wanted more; more time, more people, more fun, more of the movie that didn’t get watched, more, more, MORE.

And in that moment, all I wanted from my son was a simple “Thank you”.

And in the days that followed, I have come to the realization that I too need to know when to stop. When to say enough is enough. Yes, he is a kid and kids always want more, especially more fun. But maybe if I learned to keep things in check, he could see that he could too.

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